Guilt, Shame, Love, and MacramΓ©

The over thinker in me is struggling so much in this world right now. I’m in CONSTANT guilt mode. It’s actually debilitating. I feel guilt about the kind of wife I am, what I feed my kids, what I let them watch, how much time they’re spending indoors. I feel guilt every time I bake a damn cake and it’s not vegan. I feel guilt working at a huge coffee chain and seeing the amount of milk we use, rubbish we discard, and food we sometimes waste.

I feel guilty for every feeling I have that I’m ‘not supposed’ to have. And it’s mentally and physically draining. I honestly don’t know how to deal anymore. I’ve lost so much passion for just about everything. And I don’t want to feel like this. But then the guilt also makes me realise that it’s better than being numb all the time. Because I’ve been feeling a lot of that lately too. And it’s all just far too much for one person to bear. And the problem is I don’t actually have anyone to talk to. Not really. Not anyone that can truly understand what I’m going through. The ones that do understand…they have enough of their own shit to deal with. They don’t need to be burdened with my struggles too. So I write. I write because it’s therapeutic and I get so much out that sometimes I don’t know I’ve been holding back, it makes me re read so I can figure out what I need to do, where I need to ‘fix’ things. It also makes me say no. No to taking that extra cake order on, no to being walked all over, no to going out when all I want to do it stay in and sleep. No for doing anything that doesn’t resonate with my soul.

But also I’m very grateful for what I do have. I have people in my life that truly love me. People that I question their love for me, but my anxiety tells me it’s not true, that I can’t possibly be worthy of their love (I know you love me πŸ”₯πŸ”₯ ..I do) , I have the most amazing children, that have such beautiful hearts, even though they can be so mean at times (they’re human too) and I’m blessed with having enough. Enough food, enough money, and enough love. I even feel guilt and shame for having anxiety and depression because I have ENOUGH. I have MORE than enough. But a part of my soul is not with me, it’s missing in a sense, and until I can get that sorted, I’m afraid that all the enough…will never be just enough. Oh trust me, I know how all this sounds πŸ™ˆπŸ˜œ

So read if you want, take from it what you want, or totally skim through it if you prefer. I’m just doing me, the best way I know how. I’m just trying to get by the best way I know how. So if this resonates with you at all, it simply means you’re not alone. And there’s a lot of comfort in that. It also means that if you need to reach out, please do so. There’s a lot of love in this heart too.

These past few days have been about reading soulful books, taking long hot baths, meditating, sleeping, and just being more present.

I’d love to say I’m working on some new projects. But to be honest. I’m just tired. I don’t have it in me just yet. I have lots of ideas, and planning a lot of projects, they just haven’t come to fruition yet. But bear with me, they will come.

I have been making macrame lately. I love it because it’s very therapeutic. It keeps my hands busy, it’s 100% natural. And it looks gorgeous when made in to wall hangings, plant holders, etc.

I’m selling these plant holders at the moment for Β£12 here. I’m so in to the boho chic look right now. I’m going to macrame the shit out of my house , just you wait πŸ˜‚ Funny how it’s all coming back! I remember these all over the place as a kid. I’m glad they’ve made a comeback. I do think it’s a much prettier comeback. More to do with the colour scheme of the back thens πŸ˜‚ yes I know my wall is pink, but also, I love a colourful house. Yellow hallways, pink living room, and a lavender bathroom. It’s much prettier than I’m making it sound 😜 But the colours bring me contented ness, and it balances out my current play list which mainly consists of Billie Eilish. So it works πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™€οΈ

Anyway, the macrame department will get bigger once I finish my grocery bag, wall hangings, and even a little hanging shelf!

So stay tuned πŸ₯°

And all is ok with the world again

I haven’t written a heart felt blog in a while. Mostly because sometimes I feel like if I don’t talk about how I’m feeling, then it doesn’t matter. And it’s not important. And that if I ignore my emotions, it will all go away. And I know how naive that way of thinking is too. But I also know that’s sometimes it’s all I can do.

I’m in my bed already. Because today I’m physically and mentally exhausted. When you’re around negative energy and negative personalities, it just gets way too much. I’m so so tired of letting people/events get to me. I’m tired of people trying to tell me who I am, trying to figure out if I’ve hurt someone because God forbid they actually communicate with me and let me know where I fucked up. I’m tired of people getting angry at me for FEELING. I’m ALLOWED to feel the way I feel. I’m especially tired of caring too much. Of the guilt I feel over every decision, every action, every word. And there’s no ONE to blame but myself. Are you exhausted reading this?! I literally have headaches everyday but these are the things that go around in my head 24/7. I CANNOT stop any of it. I try. I do. I try to read, I try to meditate. Sometimes I play games on my phone just to numb my mind a bit.

Yesterday I lit a candle and lay down and let my mind calm itself, and in those moments, I’m truly at peace. I relax, and I breathe. And I let all the senseless worrying go. It’s in those moments that I can really understand what’s important in life. Sometimes I have to read back on my blogs and realise how far I’ve come. And then I also realise that I’m still at a standstill in so many aspects of my life. Where I realise I very much still live my life for other people. Because I would rather harbour the hurt, then put it all on them. But that doesn’t seem right either. I think this is sometimes just the curse of the empath. And that’s all up to me to change that. I’m just not sure where to get that sort of strength from. Because allowing myself to be do things for me…comes with a level of guilt that kills me. But I’m working on it. Everyday. Every. Single. Day. One day, perhaps I’ll get there. I’ve also been reading a lot of spiritual books, and some really fun ones about making sure we aren’t missing the signs that our spirit guides are constantly sending us. Signs to let us know that the universe ALWAYS wants what’s best for us. If we ask for them, we will get them, and also when we need anything, the universe will always provide, so long as we have faith. So I’m working every day at putting that positive energy out there. That doesn’t mean I’m not going to have my bad days. And just because I’m spiritual, it’s doesn’t mean that I have to take anyone’s shit. People will always be dicks, that’s just a universal truth. But I’m going to make sure I don’t stoop to their level (I’ll try very hard at least) 😜

My favourite candle to use in my meditations is my rose quartz 11:11 candle. I use it because rose quartz is all about the love. And I’m needing a lot of self love in my life right now. And it also smells heavenly. I use essential oils of rose musk, geranium, and Ylang Ylang to fragrance it and dried rose petals on top. You can get your own here! I’m still having a Buy One get One Free offer on my cupcake candles, so be sure to have a look here so you don’t miss out πŸ₯°

(I’m feeling so much more positive after this blog already!! See?! sometimes we just need to write it all down to understand where our triggers are!)

Sending you all so much love and light πŸ’•

Forgiveness and Soul Lessons…and a relaxing candle or 2 😏

I am really enjoying the longer days lately. I’ve been going to bed early and getting up early, because I find I’m my most productive then. I get my cakes baked, house tidied, and other chores done before the kids are even up for the day. And I get to enjoy a hot cup of coffee in peace. That means at 9pm I’m showered, teeth brushed, tucked up in my bed meditating, and actually relaxing. I’m trying to find the best cognitive therapies that I can (Because I don’t want to be on anti depressants forever) Mostly that involves asking myself why I’m feeling the way I’m feeling. And then really understanding how and if it’s even important and helpful at the present time. I like to ask myself ‘Will this matter in 5 minutes…will this matter in 5 weeks, 5 months….and 5 years. Most of the time. It won’t. And my brain can understand that. So it’s easier to let go. A few nights ago though, my thoughts got the best of me. And Kyle came upstairs to an absolute mess. And he was so concerned, and I felt bad because I couldn’t in that state, make it known that I just needed a good cry. There wasn’t anything wrong per se. It was just an accumulation of trying to keep it all together most of the time. And I’m accepting that that’s ok. Sometimes I still get totally hung up with how I’m perceived by the outside world and even people who ironically don’t want to be in my life anymore. But more often than not, I don’t ACTUALLY care. Because I know who I am. And that’s all that really matters. And all that really SHOULD matter. I’m self aware. I know my flaws and I am trying to change the ones that I feel I have control over. I’m learning to really love me, and I think I’m pretty fun. Sometimes suuuuper annoying, but again. I have to embrace it πŸ˜‚ I have a beautiful family at home and at work who I really can be myself around and I really am just trying to be the best human being I can be. Sometimes I fail miserably. Sometimes people don’t understand, or they think I have an agenda. And I kinda do. My agenda is to love EVERYONE and to not pass judgment. And to go outside of social norms and give everyone the benefit of the doubt. But I’m also not going to let people treat me badly either. If you want a place in my life, I’m here. Always. But to protect my mental health and my own heart, if you don’t want to make an effort for me or with me. That’s ok too. That’s your prerogative, that’s your journey. I’m also doing everything I can to right my wrongs. For too long I’ve felt the need to fix everyone. But that’s not my job. My job is to ‘fix’ me. I’m not ‘broken’. I know this now. I just need to tend to THIS soul. How can I save another person from drowning if I can’t even keep myself afloat? I know who I don’t want to be…so that helps me become the best version of me I can. So to anyone and everyone on a similar journey….it’s so so important to be self aware but to also remember that you’re going to mess up. Because how else can you grow? So don’t beat yourself up. Just lift yourself up, surround yourself with positivity. Turn off the news. Turn on the salt lamps, light the candles and just BE. Trust me. It does wonders for the soul and you really just live in the NOW. Where NOTHING matters.

So I’m doing that. I’m letting people go, I’m focusing on the tasks at hand. And I’m certainly not begging to be in anyone’s life anymore. It’s exhausting, hurtful, and pointless in so many aspects. If it’s not going to help you grow…you have to let it go.

I’ve also created this range of candles to soothe my soul. So If you’d like some all natural essential oil soy wax candles that have a charged crystal embedded in each one…order yours below!

I have 2 fragrances available and a 3rd on the way!

Nirvana (Amethyst)


11:11 (Rose Quartz)

They’re so so beautiful and I think because I’ve made them specially for my own therapy, I’m even more excited about them ☺️ They truly are so therapeutic and the wood-wick just gives me all the feels 😍

Sending so much love and light and just good vibes πŸ₯°πŸ’—

Immigration, the Unknown…and super gorgeous Candles

I’ve been noticing a pattern with my meds right now. One day I’ll be as high as a kite, I feel like I can take on the world…and the next. I’m drowning, my anxiety is through the roof and I’m just so weepy. And it’s so irrational, and I know this, which makes it even more frustrating. I’ve been feeling a little more on edge this week because every 2 or 3 years (I actually can’t keep up anymore!) my visa runs out, and I have to reapply for a new visa…or leave to remain…or spouse of a British national.

I feel like I’ve been on literally every single one. And every time after I pay a couple of grand, they’ll ‘let’ me stay in the country because the government doesn’t like keeping families apart….yet I feel like I’ll never get my British Citizenship. Or I face deportation. After we send off EVERY SINGLE piece of bank statements, identity, letters, proof of just about everything…we wait. And wait. And my life is put on hold because I’m waiting on someone, as I some regular person just like you and I, at Home Office to make a huge decision about MY future. And as much as I trust in the universe and that KNOW that everything that will be, will be. I can’t help but shit myself just a bit. I mean….my families future could be in the hands of someone who’s pet might have just died, or it’s their first day on the job and the person training them doesn’t give two shits because they’re leaving that job for their dream job…(this is my mind guys) or they got in a huge fight with their best friend , partner, child, etc just before they left for work. And to be honest guys…I just want to be around my family. I just don’t want to stress anymore about whether or not I’ll be deported. I don’t want to have to dip in to savings or our credit card for that matter to pay a huge sum of money for a ‘sorry, no, we just don’t feeel like you are an asset to our country.

And guys, it’s not even about the money. I have a very healthy relationship with money. Or at least I think I doπŸ˜πŸ˜‚ We work hard to feed our family, give them a roof over their heads, live comfortably…and I tend to give the rest away. Because I have got SO MUCH more than I really neeeed. And that makes me sound like I have too much money. In reality, we live pretty much pay-check to pay-check, like most people I’m assuming, but we’ve also got so much more than so many. So we always give where we can. Because we’ve been in the position when starting out as a very new family that we had to scrounge around the house for money for a load of bread. But I also know that if we continue to work hard, and play just as hard, and trust in ourselves and each other, and the universe, the money will continue to come. Because we have more than we need to survive. (Also going vegetarian saves a shitload of cash) just saying…. πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™€οΈ chickpeas and lentils are hella cheap! πŸ™ŒπŸ» So what I’m asking, ever so eloquently, is if you’ve been fancying a gorgeous, one of a kind, sniffy candle…if it’s for Mother’s Day, or just a treat for yourself (because you KNOW you deserve it…my Buy One get One Free offer is still on. Click on all the gorgeous fragrances you’d like and have them shipped straight to your door. Because who doesn’t love a twofer?! It’s a total win win, because you’ll also be helping me to pay my massive Leave to Remain fee! 😬❀️ Thanks my loves. So so much, and more than you know! What are you waiting for?! Click here and get your order(s) in!


You’re so sensitive!

I’ve been told my entire life that I’m ‘so sensitive’. Said in such a way that I felt like there was something wrong with me. Like it was a weakness. Because I felt things more than others. Over the years I started hardening my heart a little. Yes I would still cry in just about every film I ever watched, but I built a wall and tried to fight the sensitivity. I found myself becoming more hostile, angry, and intolerant. And then when things get really bad in my head. I shut down. I still do that. I become much less talkative…which says a LOT. I isolate myself from friends and family, and I hide.

My mind refuses to turn off lately. I’ve been getting crazy anxiety, I’ve been worrying about EVERYTHING and I just can’t shut it down. And now….I have a mini version of that at home. Although both my children are very sensitive (thankfully!)…Hayden is extremely so. And every so often I see my 8 year old self in her. She feels so so much, that I think sometimes her little soul can’t take it anymore. And my goodness she can be MEAN! She’s quite the philosopher, is questioning the ways of the world ALL the time, and she gets so angry when things don’t make sense in her head. Things like having to eat her pizza at school lunch with a knife and fork. I mean….she gets ANGRY, and you know what…she has a point! We don’t eat our sandwiches with a knife and fork so I’m on her side with this ALL THE WAY. She’s a people pleaser, and when she comes home from school, a good day is when she’s made the teacher proud. And I adore that, but sometimes I wish that she didn’t care so much what people think. She overthinks. She asks questions like ‘what’s the point in being born if people are just going to boss you around the whole time’, why in the world do we have to do maths when it’s just silly and I’ll never need to know it, and why do I need to go to school to learn stupid things.

These past couple of weeks has been a really rough one for me. I’ve been really really struggling with my purpose, my ambitions and what exactly I’m supposed to be doing in this crazy world. And then I see the way my daughter is, and I realise that if I weren’t here anymore…she would struggle. Don’t get me wrong. Kyle is MORE than enough. He’s an incredible dad. So supportive and understanding of our children. But lately when I get those very dark thoughts. I think of how my babies would be. And I know they’d be so much worse without me. Because I was that child. I can empathise fully, and I know how to handle it.

Just today my little boy gave me the biggest kiss and cuddle jumped into my arms and while he squeezed the life out of me he said ‘Mum, I love you so much, I don’t even know what to do! I just want to kiss you and cuddle you!! I love you FOREVER!’ And sometimes that’s all it takes to make me stop, think about my hurts…and realise that I would DESTROY them if I went through with my thoughts. Those babies need their momma so much. And you know what? I need them. I need to teach them how to use their empathic powers for the good of the world. To teach them how to be humble, and kind, and giving. I’m so very proud of them. Because although they can be ABSOLUTE SHITS, we’ll be sure to raise some decent human beings. Even though their mom has done some awful things in her life. It’s a reminder that I’m human too…and I’m not infallible….and that’s ok. Because I’m trying every single day. And they won’t be perfect all the time…and that’s ok too. Because how else do we learn?

*edit* I initially wrote this blog weeks ago. And I was struggling, so much. This past week I’ve been in such a good place. It’s been a good week, but I’ve decided to blog this anyway, because this blog is for me. It’s a diary of sorts that will help me, and hopefully others too that are going through a dark period in their life. So I’ll be publishing more blogs that are about my journey, rather than promoting my products, because sometimes. I just need to write ❀️ I know I just published a blog yesterday and right now, I’m in a good place. I really am. I’m hopeful. And these blogs are never meant to be dark, and sad, and soul destroying. If anything, my intention for them is to be the complete opposite! Express yourselves, talk and have the hard conversations. We need to. The world needs more acceptance, and we could all use a little more understanding. There’s no judging here. Ever! Because we’re all a little bit weird…right?! πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™€οΈβ€οΈ

Back on the pills πŸ’Š

*Edit- I initially wrote this blog about 3 months ago and never hit publish. I was re reading it today and realised that I’ve been overthinking my posts too….and that this is my blog, where I get to write out my thoughts and feelings and I’m going to publish each and every post I make. I have a few that have been left because I was perhaps feeling a bit vulnerable.. and though my meds make me so sleepy (I’ve had to start taking them at night so as to not sleep all day) they’re definitely helping. Although I’ve had a few relapses….I think that’s to be expected…*

Hey my guys, literally a tough pill to swallow here, but I’ve had to go back on my anti depressants. I’ve been fighting it for so long, because stupidly I was letting my ego get in the way, where I should have been listening to my intuition…(I’m kinda good at ignoring my higher self πŸ™„) I wanted to meditate, I wanted to do it all naturally. But our good pal Greg…kinda forced me to see a doctor. Don’t get me wrong. Kyle I’m sure was just as worried…but he also knows I’m a big girl, and making an appointment with the doctor isn’t something that I should just be doing for my children’s medical needs. Sometimes I need to be brave and take care of me too. But guys, adulting is the shits…and I struggle with doing the not so fun stuff. But Greg came round for coffee and he started asking questions…the hard questions. Then he MADE me schedule an appointment and he was going to check in to make sure I had…and y’all I’m not about to disappoint Greg 😏 so I did. Make the appointment I mean…And although I don’t WANT to be back on meds…I also want to feel ok again. And I want my babies to have a less sad mom. And I want to feel like myself again. Whatever that means πŸ˜‰

As sad as I am…I’m also one of the most optimistic and happy people that I know. It’s sounds insane. Trust me. I realise this. And although there are MANY days when I look in to my future and see nothing but good things, there are also more days than I’d like where I see nothing but defeat. I see hatred, greed, and just a world where I feel like I don’t belong. And I just want to go home. Not home as in Canada, or even South Africa for that matter. But HOME. And those days scare me. Because although I don’t fear death. AT ALL. I fear for my children. I fear that if I leave them behind in this messy world, then I’ve failed them completely.

I tried a few things before I went to see the docs. I got a job. A job outside of my businesses making cakes and candles. I got a job that I had about 14 years ago that I swore I’d return to one day.

I worked for a very short time in Richmond as a Barista for Starbucks. And let me tell you, of ALL the jobs I’ve had (and I’ve had MANY) Starbucks was hands down one of my favourites. So I went for an interview and I got a job as a shift supervisor. So for the past 3 months I’ve been learning and re learning all the things. And I LOVE it!!! It’s such a fantastic and rewarding job. It gets my mind off things, the shitty, scary things. And all I need to do is focus on the job at hand. My co workers are all such a joy to work with…well mostly πŸ€ͺand I couldn’t ask for a more decent and fun manager. Although I’ve only been there a few short months, I feel like I’ve been apart of the team for YEARS!

And the doctor was AMAZING! Seriously, hands down, one of the best doctors I’ve had in the UK so far. He actually cared. He asked questions, the hard questions. He didn’t want to just know the thoughts I was having and how he could treat them. He wanted to understand. And that felt so good. It felt so good knowing that a doctor actually cared about a patient’s well being, instead of just writing a quick prescription and being done with it.

I’m hoping I won’t be on the meds for too long, but I’m not going to beat myself up about it either. I’m going to make sure I get better, that I get the help I need, and that I start living in a way that my soul will progress. I’m an incredibly impatient person, so this is why I’m struggling so much too. But also, it’s a huge lesson in learning how to slow down, and enjoy this gift of life that I’ve been given. Because this life truly is a gift. And I know I’m here for a reason, and that reason hasn’t made itself super clear to me. I’m definitely getting better at listening πŸ₯°

Valentine’s Day! And all the fuss πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™€οΈβ€οΈπŸ€ͺ😏

Hey my guys, I was going to introduce a new Valentine’s Day Scent…but instead got far too hyped up about Easter. I know, but when you’ve got Easter Eggs staring you down every single aisle in Tesco…Valentine’s Day is kinda left out. Until the week before that is!

I’m not a big celebrant of VDay anyway. I don’t like the hype, I don’t like what it stands for anymore….and to be honest, I’d rather receive a bouquet of flowers on any other day of the year….because then I KNOW that it’s more from the heart than a ‘well Hallmark says I should soooo…’ But I’m a total hypocrite too…because I love seeing all the cutesy love hearts, cakes, and chocolates everywhere. It makes me smile….so what I’m saying in a very roundabout way is that I’ll leave Valentine’s Day to Hallmark….. (although I’m not about to turn down an order for some cute Valentine’s Day cupcakes either) πŸ˜‰πŸ˜‚

I jumped ahead and ordered some adorable labels from my supplier, and concocted a vanilla and chocolate fragrance….did a bit of clay work and voila!

My Cream Egg Candle was born….and ain’t she something else?! I’m undecided on whether I’ll only have these available at Easter…or all year round. What do you guys think?!! I’d love to hear your thoughts. I don’t think many of you heard about my Buy One Get One Free Promo, so I’ll keep that on my website. Any candle from my cupcake range while quantities last including this new Fragrance. Click this link to order yours today. The offer will be automatically applied at the checkout. Thanks my loves. If you need me, I’ll be making candles….and brownies….or Brownie Candles!! πŸ€”πŸ˜πŸ™ŒπŸ» Stay tuned….I’m always experimenting

Sending love and light πŸ’•


Hello my loves! Happy Happy New Year! I am so incredibly grateful for all of your support in the last year. My candles have been very popular and I’ve been very busy with cakes as well so I feel like I need to give back! The universe has been so kind to me. It seems the least I can do.

I still have an abundance of candles (although fragrances are limited) so I’ll be having a sale on these specific fragrances. They will be on sale while supplies last as I also need to make some room so I can bring you some new fragrances…and so I can get some room to store my massive boxes Soy Wax. Small house my guys…the struggle is real when you’re a crafter πŸ™ˆ

So take your pick of these gorgeous fragrances and watch for my latest candles! Right now all fragrances listed are available in the 20cl jars and are BUY ONE GET ONE FREE!

Exciting stuff!! I highly recommend the Blueberry Cheesecake, and the Banana Nut Muffin…oh but then again the Strawberry Wine is beautiful too. Far too many to choose from, but at this deal, you can get a few. Am I right?! Oooh Chocolate Orange, and Gingerbread are lush too 😏 Have fun choosing and I can’t wait to bring you my new range. Don’t forget to subscribe! X

Sale ends January 31st or until stock runs out.

I have an exciting new fragrance available for Easter (I know….it’s only January, but I’m just trying to keep up with the rest of the world 🀣) as well so keep an eye out! 😘

All Natural Crystal Candle Range and Twin Flame Healing πŸ’•

My loves! I’m back with some new candles. I’m a real sucker for crystals, crystal healing, and all natural products. I wear Amethyst and Rose Quartz around my neck all the time, my meditation room is scattered with Citrine, Amethyst, Tourmaline, Quartz and Turquoise, and I am currently taking a course on crystal healing as well. Crystals are calming and beautiful and really make a difference with ALL THE THINGS. My kids have even taken a keen interest. I decided that because I love my crystals so much, and I LOVE aromatherapy, it just made sense to put the two together and develop some candles that help to heal, look gorgeous, and smell amazing as well. I’ve developed 3 fragrances right now and you can order the first one (11:11) here!

This all natural range uses only the best essential oils and fragrance oils and I’ve included a crystal in each candle. Once you burn it down, you have your very own crystal to use as you like.

First I have ’11:11′ my twin flame candle. This candle promotes love in all its forms, as well as self love and also helps call in your soulmate or twin flame. I personally use it with my twin flame healing meditations when I need to send love, healing, and forgiveness to my twin, and when I want to clear any negative energies and vibrations between us. It’s also a way to help my twin awaken, and to remember who and what they are so they can be the best version of themselves. So they can heal, and be happy and ultimately living their best life. It helps align me to unconditional love in all aspects of my life too.

Lately I’ve been using it to send love and healing to a very toxic person in my life. When I need to remember that the bad vibes they’re sending my way, have nothing to do with me. That I need to focus on my own healing instead of taking on their hatefulness, and regardless of how hurtful and petty they’re being…I can send them love and light, and release all the negativity. Because only I have that power over me πŸ’•

Anyway…the candle is infused with rose musk, Ylang Ylang and geranium, sprinkled with dried rose petals and has a gorgeous Rose Quartz crystal inside the candle. It’s also made with a wooden wick so you get this gorgeous crackling effect when it’s lit!! Sooooo so beautiful. So use this Candle with all the love you can muster, then sprinkle that shit everywhere. Because Spirit knows we need it now more than ever. Just LOVE!! Get rid of the need to be right, and the need to have power over others. Because it’s stupid. Just love my guys. It’s so much nicer, and your life becomes so much calmer too.

Next (although not for sale just yet) I have ‘Nirvana’, this candle is scented with Lavender, and helps to promote calm, balance, peace and sleep. I have included Amethyst crystals as they aid with Depression, and in spirituality growth and contentment. It’s an all encompassing and empowering stone that has SO many benefits. I use this one more when I’m taking a bath. It’s where I can relax, de stress and wash away the worries of my day. I use it with my handmade 100% natural Geode bath bombs, which you can order here!!

‘Happy’ is my Citrine Candle. It’s scented with orange and lemon blossom, bergamot and grapefruit. Citrine represents the Solar Plexus Chakra and provides the user with hope, happiness, courage, and warmth. Citrine is also the crystal used for prosperity and good fortune. And who doesn’t love a little extra cash coming in now and then. Kyle thinks I’m nuts, but I do guided meditations on manifesting wealth…and when he’s worrying about money I tell him ‘I’ve got this, I did my wealth meditation’, he gives me an eye roll, and then I get a big order soon after and he just laughs. It’s all about putting that positive energy out there my guys!! X

That’s all for now, but I’m also working on a range focused more for men. I generally really dislike when products are marketed for men or women only…as I prefer wearing men’s deodorant to women’s and I LOVE the smell of aftershave so this next candle is actually inspired by my manager who asked if I had a more masculine scent, like his favourite aftershaves. So of course I had to see what I could do. So far I have ‘Sauvage’, ‘Invictus’, and ‘Angel’.

I think what I love most about them is the simplicity of the design too. A lovely little Silver tin with a watercolour label, and a crackling wooden wick that just looks so homely . I’ll be lighting up my Sauvage candle so I don’t need to be so weird as to sniff my husbands shirt when he’s on night shift and I’m missing him a little more than usual πŸ˜…πŸ™ˆ

Anyway, all these candles will be available to order for Christmas, so please watch this space, subscribe and you’ll always be the first to hear about all my new products.

Thanks my loves, sending you all the love and light I can muster! You ALL deserve it πŸ˜˜πŸ’•

Cake International and Donut Eat Bakery

Hello my loves!! Apparently it’s been 2 months since my last post…and guaranteed, my next blog will be about a week or 2 after this one…when it rains it pours and all that πŸ˜‰

It’s been pretty hectic here lately. I hate saying that. I prefer calm, but apparently I do chaos much better 😜

I very last minute decided to go to Cake International to get my Donut Eat Bakery brand out there a bit. And when I have my heart set on something…it takes a LOT to change my mind. I’m very strong willed and stubborn in that sense. If I have the vision, I make it happen. No and’s, if’s or but’s about it. And I believe in my product. It’s unique, totally one of a kind, it’s quality and what’s more, they look amazing and smell fantastic! So yeah, I’m beyond excited to get them out for everyone to enjoy 😍

So I booked my table, we managed to get the kids looked after and I booked a little Enterprise Van. I spent hours in the kitchen melting and pouring wax, casting resin and making beautiful candles.

I packed up the van on Thursday, and headed out to Birmingham. My GPS told me 7 hours….I finally arrived after 12. Mostly because of a wrong turn on my part…but also, the M8 was a nightmare…or was it the M6?! I still don’t think I’ll ever figure that out. All I know is the motorway is scary. Especially as I really do not like driving in the dark…on foreign roads, sandwiched between lorries, going 80mph, in lashing rain.

When I finally found my hotel, I started bringing all my boxes in, and realised I left a VERY important box at home. I was gutted. And when you’re exhausted, and starting to doubt yourself and allll the money you’ve spent on your dream…you get a teeny bit overwhelmed. And it felt like my whole world was falling apart. I slept for 3 hours before I had to be up to prepare some things I hadn’t had time to do before I left home. And then I left for the National Exhibition Centre.

The roundabouts in Birmingham are beyond comprehension. I missed the turn off twice so a 6 minute drive from my hotel turned in to a 45 minute journey. At one point, I put my hands firmly on the steering wheel and SCREAMED on the top of my lungs out of sheer frustration.

When I finally made it, I posted a wee message to my Facebook Collaboration group, and within minutes my cake family arrived to rescue me. Vicki and Sarah give THE best hugs and along with some other fantastic gals, they had me all set up and ready to go in no time. Coffee included!! I was so moved and get choked up just thinking about it. They really came through when I was feeling so alone and vulnerable. Thank you ladies. You are amazing 😍

You must go check out their pages. Sarah makes the most BEAUTIFUL wedding cakes at Eat My Muffin Bakery and Vicki from Tiki’s Bakehouse is the Queen of Collaborations. Such a beautiful woman, always taking on so much more than any of us are capable of, for her love of the craft πŸ’•

My beautiful friend Victoria who I met in Ireland and hit it off straight away, came up from London to support me. She came up with her husband and sweet baby boy. I mean, how fantastic is that?! I really am so blessed.

So the first day went ok. But I felt unprepared, and tired, so I think that reflected…a lot. I went back to the hotel that night and slept for 10 hours. So the next morning I was feeling refreshed and so much more optimistic. And I sold much more. People were LOVING my products, and it felt GREAT! I even made it to the event in 10 minutes πŸ™ŒπŸ» getting those roundabouts sussed πŸ˜‰

Day 3 was quieter but I got to meet some amazing people, including Claire from and she did some coffee and tea runs for me too. She also won an award on her cake and she’s only just started in AUGUST?!! Wonderful talent 😍

I even managed to do a wee bit of shopping. And with my Frostinator from Evil Cake Genius, I’m bound to get perfectly sharp edged buttercream cakes like PaddyCakes UK. Erm for real, those edges could cut steel! Such a great guy is Patrick and I’m so delighted to have met him. Check out his stunning work at

I had to get some sprinkles off my neighbours at Sweetapolita too. Beautiful gals and just so lovely. It’s the Canadian in them ya know πŸ˜‰

I’m so excited to try the sprinkles on my next cake! πŸ™ŒπŸ»

I added 5 new fragrances to my line too…


Banana Nut Muffin

Holiday Magic

Apple Cinnamon

Pumpkin Spice

And I can honestly say, I can’t choose a favourite of the 5. They’re all pretty delicious. You can order them HERE!

So, I left for home on Sunday at about 7. I had to stop at a few service stations on the way home just to make sure I didn’t fall asleep at the wheel. I got pretty cosy on my route back, and got a few kips in. Thankfully there were numerous Starbucks’ on the way, and eventually…got a bit weepy when I saw the massive Saltire 🏴󠁧󠁒󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿 Sign. I was on familiar territory again.

I finally made it home at 10am. Had a wonderful bath, dropped my rental van off, and then picked the kids up from School. I missed them enormously. And I missed their daddy too. So much. I fell asleep that night with the kids at 730….and slept straight through to 7am the next morning. Was it worth it? I think so. Will I do it again? Probably. On my own?! Nope. I will never do that journey alone again. I will say I’m so incredibly proud of myself for doing it. For believing in myself, for knowing that I have it in me. That I’m capable. And that I’m not going to let anything or anyone stand in the way of my dreams. Because life is too short for others to dictate how you live it. So take the chance. Do you. Because I know that I’d regret it if I never tried.

And the connections I made, the people I met. The progress I made. It was all meant to happen. The universe works in mysterious ways. I know it was all part of the plan x

Thanks for reading my loves. I’ll have a new post out shortly. Because there’s so much more to tell you that I just didn’t have time for in this post! And I’ll have Christmas Gift sets up in the next few days so watch this space!!!

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