I’ve been noticing a pattern with my meds right now. One day I’ll be as high as a kite, I feel like I can take on the world…and the next. I’m drowning, my anxiety is through the roof and I’m just so weepy. And it’s so irrational, and I know this, which makes it even more frustrating. I’ve been feeling a little more on edge this week because every 2 or 3 years (I actually can’t keep up anymore!) my visa runs out, and I have to reapply for a new visa…or leave to remain…or spouse of a British national.
I feel like I’ve been on literally every single one. And every time after I pay a couple of grand, they’ll ‘let’ me stay in the country because the government doesn’t like keeping families apart….yet I feel like I’ll never get my British Citizenship. Or I face deportation. After we send off EVERY SINGLE piece of bank statements, identity, letters, proof of just about everything…we wait. And wait. And my life is put on hold because I’m waiting on someone, as I some regular person just like you and I, at Home Office to make a huge decision about MY future. And as much as I trust in the universe and that KNOW that everything that will be, will be. I can’t help but shit myself just a bit. I mean….my families future could be in the hands of someone who’s pet might have just died, or it’s their first day on the job and the person training them doesn’t give two shits because they’re leaving that job for their dream job…(this is my mind guys) or they got in a huge fight with their best friend , partner, child, etc just before they left for work. And to be honest guys…I just want to be around my family. I just don’t want to stress anymore about whether or not I’ll be deported. I don’t want to have to dip in to savings or our credit card for that matter to pay a huge sum of money for a ‘sorry, no, we just don’t feeel like you are an asset to our country.
And guys, it’s not even about the money. I have a very healthy relationship with money. Or at least I think I do😏😂 We work hard to feed our family, give them a roof over their heads, live comfortably…and I tend to give the rest away. Because I have got SO MUCH more than I really neeeed. And that makes me sound like I have too much money. In reality, we live pretty much pay-check to pay-check, like most people I’m assuming, but we’ve also got so much more than so many. So we always give where we can. Because we’ve been in the position when starting out as a very new family that we had to scrounge around the house for money for a load of bread. But I also know that if we continue to work hard, and play just as hard, and trust in ourselves and each other, and the universe, the money will continue to come. Because we have more than we need to survive. (Also going vegetarian saves a shitload of cash) just saying…. 🤷🏻♀️ chickpeas and lentils are hella cheap! 🙌🏻 So what I’m asking, ever so eloquently, is if you’ve been fancying a gorgeous, one of a kind, sniffy candle…if it’s for Mother’s Day, or just a treat for yourself (because you KNOW you deserve it…my Buy One get One Free offer is still on. Click on all the gorgeous fragrances you’d like and have them shipped straight to your door. Because who doesn’t love a twofer?! It’s a total win win, because you’ll also be helping me to pay my massive Leave to Remain fee! 😬❤️ Thanks my loves. So so much, and more than you know! What are you waiting for?! Click here and get your order(s) in!